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Iiiiiiiiii think i have a problem right now.

I know it sounds really juvenile, and that's sort of stopped me talking to anyone about it a bit... but I have a recurring problem with loneliness.

Abject, fundamental, "I feel horrible, why can't I feel like I can connect with someone, for the love of god, this is awful" sort of thing.

I want this to stop.

I have a life that this shouldn't really be so much of a massive problem in, right now.

I'm reading into it as much as I can, I'm not a dull man.

If anyone knows any apt psychology books/studies/etc, it would be really appreciated.

I don't want to continue feeling this way, and all it entails.

It's starting to do my head in, to be honest. It's making me self-indulgent and irritating.

I'm not very happy about it.

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OK.

Tell me your favourite thing, and I will pile scorn upon it.

I have a hangover, and worryingly severe existential angst. I might as well use it to berate you people.

HEARMENOW!

much better

hmm...

Much to my surprise, I actually feel a lot better. ta to the folks I've nattered to... especially those who poked me to see if I was doing ok :) is really appreciated :)

I don't expect the lonely thing to go away, it has always been there, it's just peaked recently, but mostly I think I've just got too many things spinning at once, and mentally dropped some plates, because when I chill and look at things, life's not actually that much of a pisser right now.

I shall eat some food, grab a bath and have a sensible night's sleep, I reckon.

Tomorrow contains a Mark Eris, and such things require adequate psychic preparation!