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deathboyI've spent today listening to "already" by Jesus Jones.
And it's caught me right upside the head.
I loved all the previous albums.
And they seemed to hit me ultra-hard because when I listened to them, I was in exactly the right state to hear what they said.
Already missed me the first time, as I was finishing university.
As I was realising three years worth of hard fucking work, good friends, fun, suffering, crazy and fight.
From which I walked away with a good result.
So I left uni with my dreams in tact, feeling pretty fucking hardcore about things.
So "Already", which, when it's energetic and furious is so in a (frankly) pissed off, jaded, pushy, unpleasant fashion.
Themes of disillusionment, drug-life-commentary, social-commentary... broken and lost dreams.
Growing up.
Missed me back then, because I still had my dreams in tact.
Then I listen to it this afternoon.
For a while, I felt euphoric, because it instantly made me remmeber when I listened to it first - last year at uni. Full of dreams and passion and the feeling that I could fuck whole FUCKING world over.
Then I started listening again, and I felt very black and dejected indeed.
And I fucking loved it.
I spose I was several years out of step with the Jesus Jones people just through age.
And now, it fits right in.
Loss of dreams. Cripling cynicism. Jaded to the point of resignation.
Fucked me right in the eye, I can tell you.
Right up the pyramid.
So, tonight, I have made the second track for the Sekret Side Projeckt.
Which is a triphop album.
But done my way.
I actually have the new DeathBoy album to finish as it goes. Which is taking... time. And effort. 's gonna be good, mind.
Raverboy wasn't what I meant it to be, but I needed shot of it (and the odd track like Zeroline and T_K_C_R_ were good), but it's time for new fun now, and I've been promising The Phil we'd finish what we started for some time now. Coincidentally, we both felt like doing a dark-as-you-like take on triphop. So that's how it's going.
Which leaves a three-year clash. But I'm sure we can fuck that over.
So.
One track I wrote three years ago, and two that I wrote in the last week, that aren't finished.
Fuck only knows why you put up with this shit.
Shadow Freaks - DeadLife
Shadow Freaks - Massive
Shadow Freaks - Recalcitrant
keeps me off the streets, dunnit?
And it's caught me right upside the head.
I loved all the previous albums.
And they seemed to hit me ultra-hard because when I listened to them, I was in exactly the right state to hear what they said.
Already missed me the first time, as I was finishing university.
As I was realising three years worth of hard fucking work, good friends, fun, suffering, crazy and fight.
From which I walked away with a good result.
So I left uni with my dreams in tact, feeling pretty fucking hardcore about things.
So "Already", which, when it's energetic and furious is so in a (frankly) pissed off, jaded, pushy, unpleasant fashion.
Themes of disillusionment, drug-life-commentary, social-commentary... broken and lost dreams.
Growing up.
Missed me back then, because I still had my dreams in tact.
Then I listen to it this afternoon.
For a while, I felt euphoric, because it instantly made me remmeber when I listened to it first - last year at uni. Full of dreams and passion and the feeling that I could fuck whole FUCKING world over.
Then I started listening again, and I felt very black and dejected indeed.
And I fucking loved it.
I spose I was several years out of step with the Jesus Jones people just through age.
And now, it fits right in.
Loss of dreams. Cripling cynicism. Jaded to the point of resignation.
Fucked me right in the eye, I can tell you.
Right up the pyramid.
So, tonight, I have made the second track for the Sekret Side Projeckt.
Which is a triphop album.
But done my way.
I actually have the new DeathBoy album to finish as it goes. Which is taking... time. And effort. 's gonna be good, mind.
Raverboy wasn't what I meant it to be, but I needed shot of it (and the odd track like Zeroline and T_K_C_R_ were good), but it's time for new fun now, and I've been promising The Phil we'd finish what we started for some time now. Coincidentally, we both felt like doing a dark-as-you-like take on triphop. So that's how it's going.
Which leaves a three-year clash. But I'm sure we can fuck that over.
So.
One track I wrote three years ago, and two that I wrote in the last week, that aren't finished.
Fuck only knows why you put up with this shit.
Shadow Freaks - DeadLife
Shadow Freaks - Massive
Shadow Freaks - Recalcitrant
keeps me off the streets, dunnit?
