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I'm in an odd mood... 'have been for a few weeks now.
The upshot is, I think I've stupidly saturated people with... "my stuff".
Prolly.
'Hard line to walk... I desperately want my little atonal bastard babies to run amok amongst the general public...
... and at the same time, I don't to piss people off, or get taken for granted... become part of the background.
Which, I feel, has occured.
So, no giant flouncy strop, but I'm going on hiatus.
Hopefully this track I've magically extruded from my pores this evening (despite planning for an early night) will open a few eyes. Maybe not.
Anyways, my latest and, for a while, last offering is this:
Roughneck - DeathBoy (localserver)
Roughneck - DeathBoy (antigoth server)
I'm going to stop shovelling out the things I make, make sure I really am making them for me, and work out if I've been doing things right.
People have asked me if writing a metric shitload of music, banging it out for all to see is the best idea... I always thought it was because it was entirely natural - I write a few tracks a month and see no reason not to upload them... if I finish a track, it means there was something worth finishing about the bugger, so let's bare it's arse to the world.
Lately, I have this horrible feeling of 'meh' from the world.
Which I desperately wanted to avoid.
When you make something you love and you're trying to make sure anyone who might like it gets exposed to it, you can cross lines because of over enthusiasm, and maybe that's been done now.
I'm still going to carry whacking shit out exactly as I have since I was 13, but I think I'll keep the majority of it for my own 'enjoyment'. Hopefully, if I make some kind of streamlining process and release things like your normal musician, those who are interest wiill get the 'good stuff' and not maybe be put off by the regular pedestrian stuff that is part of my process.
This is not, by the way, a cry for commentary and attention, nor will I pretend to ignore anyone who *does* think I'm doing the wrong thing and would like me to just crack on like I used to. It's my choice, it's my stuff, I've had a think and I reckon the less you see of me, the more you'll like.
Same as, quite frankly, my entire life.
The "deathboy massive" can get a CDR off me anytime if they're so interested.
Right. I never meant to write a track tonight and I have some serious code to bash tomorrow. Bedtime, I reckon.
---
she was on her own
she bled to get by
he was always on the phone
lying in the gutter
gazing up at the
sky
bet they can't see you
bet they can't read you
bet they are indifferent
they're never gonna need you
say it to yourself
say it over and over
say it to yourself
to make it real
say it to yourself
and get fucked over
write it in yourself
to make you feel
say it to yourself
say it over and over
say it to yourself
no going back
say it to yourself
and get fucked over
one times blue and
two times black
everyone's available
you know
you've got to keep them interested
everyone's for sale
you know
we're always open to the highest bid
you made me erase me
killed the innocent in ... side
genocide grew up to replace me
filled the void
now let's all fucking
die
The upshot is, I think I've stupidly saturated people with... "my stuff".
Prolly.
'Hard line to walk... I desperately want my little atonal bastard babies to run amok amongst the general public...
... and at the same time, I don't to piss people off, or get taken for granted... become part of the background.
Which, I feel, has occured.
So, no giant flouncy strop, but I'm going on hiatus.
Hopefully this track I've magically extruded from my pores this evening (despite planning for an early night) will open a few eyes. Maybe not.
Anyways, my latest and, for a while, last offering is this:
Roughneck - DeathBoy (localserver)
Roughneck - DeathBoy (antigoth server)
I'm going to stop shovelling out the things I make, make sure I really am making them for me, and work out if I've been doing things right.
People have asked me if writing a metric shitload of music, banging it out for all to see is the best idea... I always thought it was because it was entirely natural - I write a few tracks a month and see no reason not to upload them... if I finish a track, it means there was something worth finishing about the bugger, so let's bare it's arse to the world.
Lately, I have this horrible feeling of 'meh' from the world.
Which I desperately wanted to avoid.
When you make something you love and you're trying to make sure anyone who might like it gets exposed to it, you can cross lines because of over enthusiasm, and maybe that's been done now.
I'm still going to carry whacking shit out exactly as I have since I was 13, but I think I'll keep the majority of it for my own 'enjoyment'. Hopefully, if I make some kind of streamlining process and release things like your normal musician, those who are interest wiill get the 'good stuff' and not maybe be put off by the regular pedestrian stuff that is part of my process.
This is not, by the way, a cry for commentary and attention, nor will I pretend to ignore anyone who *does* think I'm doing the wrong thing and would like me to just crack on like I used to. It's my choice, it's my stuff, I've had a think and I reckon the less you see of me, the more you'll like.
Same as, quite frankly, my entire life.
The "deathboy massive" can get a CDR off me anytime if they're so interested.
Right. I never meant to write a track tonight and I have some serious code to bash tomorrow. Bedtime, I reckon.
---
she was on her own
she bled to get by
he was always on the phone
lying in the gutter
gazing up at the
sky
bet they can't see you
bet they can't read you
bet they are indifferent
they're never gonna need you
say it to yourself
say it over and over
say it to yourself
to make it real
say it to yourself
and get fucked over
write it in yourself
to make you feel
say it to yourself
say it over and over
say it to yourself
no going back
say it to yourself
and get fucked over
one times blue and
two times black
everyone's available
you know
you've got to keep them interested
everyone's for sale
you know
we're always open to the highest bid
you made me erase me
killed the innocent in ... side
genocide grew up to replace me
filled the void
now let's all fucking
die
*cants head*
Date: 2003-07-02 08:20 pm (UTC)Well this sucks massively large donkey dicks!
Well shit fuck, I guess all I really have to say is...
CACK 'N BALLS!
Yes, I'm weird I know.
-Jippie
"Time is passin by,
Time has passed us by."
no subject
Date: 2003-07-02 09:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-07-02 10:39 pm (UTC)If you stop posting about your songs, do you know what would happen to *my* journal? Well, it'd become the DeathBoy tracks journal probably. I mean, hell, look at my icons. You inspire me. Don't let other peope knock you down . . . instead, knock *them* down. If they don't want to read it, they can skip it. It's not like this is posted on CNN and they're forced to read it.
Music is a major part of your life. Cutting it out of your journal would mean cutting out a part of your life from your journal. Do you really want to do that? I sure as hell don't want you to . . .
If need be, I can give you a code to make another journal specifically for your music. Just give me a hollar on the email or something, and you will be hooked up ;)
Much love as always.
---Justin K. // FlatLine/Loki
Re:
Date: 2003-07-02 11:21 pm (UTC)Dad always said that he makes the music for no one but himself, and that I believe to be true. That's what makes it so great, because it's right from the heart.
The one and only Uber Talented Industrial DeathBoy Machine(TM) . . . pure genius. :)
Do whatever it takes to keep breathing, but always be sure to post in your journal what *you* want. It's yours, make sure to keep it that way mate ;)
NOTE: For those who didn't know, Dad = Scott. He's my father in the Uber Family(TM) ;)
---Justin K. // FlatLine/Loki
Re:
Date: 2003-07-02 11:29 pm (UTC)Just some of the family can be found in my user profile. :) One day, when I get off my lazy ass I'm going to actually make a family tree and put it on a site. That'll be a kicker . . . oh my, I can see it now . . . and to think, my grandparents are a Bottle of Vodka, Gary Numan, and a deal with Satan gone horribly wrong . . . ;)
---Justin K. // FlatLine/Loki
Re:
Date: 2003-07-02 11:37 pm (UTC)Norse Mythos++++++
Very entertaining. When I get older, I'm getting a wolf/siberian husky breed dog and naming him Fenris. Perhaps he'll devour someone's hand, and then cause ragnarok . . . ;)
---Justin K. // FlatLine/Loki
Rargh.
Date: 2003-07-02 11:39 pm (UTC)Then, if you'd like... make a nice, new journal... for your lyrics.
The latter of us have codes... and we're fans... your fans... we'd give you such things, as well as our whore-ish bodies... *grin*
no subject
Date: 2003-07-03 12:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-07-03 12:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-07-03 12:39 am (UTC)I totally agree with your points. I think it'll do you good to do "stuff" for yourself rather than for the masses. I mean christ, you've almost filled up BOTAT in about 2 months. And with all the best will in the world, not every song you've ever done is as killer as say Killer, Crawlout, Sick World, etc. Maybe it would make people love you more if you went through some kind of fractional distillation.
On the other hand it depends what you want out of it. Now, as a recording artist with a record deal, you want the masses only to hear the very best of the crop. That's the only way you'll get people to buy your album. On the other hand, that's only the new face of DeathBoy. The old face is very much the experimental musician who whacks shit together and shows everyone. Sometimes it's GOALLLL, sometimes it's not - the latter way is more organic and I think that's what your hardcore prefer. It's like me having access to all Slayer's demo tapes on an ongoing basis. Actually, I think I'd hate that, because I'd hear all the songs they didn't think were good enough for a proper release - and I think that's your point.
I know you'll keep writing the shit, I'm sure we'll hear it at rehearsals ;) Personally I say do what the fuck you want, it's your choice.
no subject
Date: 2003-07-03 01:30 am (UTC)It all depends what you want now you have a record deal. Do you want to just be Scott who puts his tracks on the net for nothing or Scott who keeps everything for the album? In one sense putting them on the net is great because you have built up a fanbase all over the world already. On the other, you could bottle it all up, everyone gets excited about 'The New Album' and from that hype springs good things on the back of that.
Are the two exclusive? Hard to say. Maybe a buzzy album launch with 150 expectant people in London is better than 3000 people having an MP3?
no subject
Date: 2003-07-03 02:35 am (UTC)[hell - your music, your creation, *you* matter]
Real point : thank you for the warning / explaination - I'd start to worry if it went a week without a writing post otherwise.
music on lj
Date: 2003-07-03 11:28 am (UTC)Moop.
Date: 2003-07-03 12:53 pm (UTC)In other news, I just woke up from a dream that I was in a group having a tour of the insane castle you lived in. Complete with ancient battleship wreckage in certain hallways from you and your buddies staging mock naval battles with them and then setting them on fire. I was pretty entertained, so I thought I'd share. Now I'm out of rambly, so I must depart. ^^
music
Date: 2003-07-03 03:49 pm (UTC)Bloody brilliant
Date: 2004-05-04 08:10 am (UTC)Man, I am a HUGE fan. So far, I have not heard a single song that I do not like, and have been listening to the, oh 900mb worth of songs for months now :)
Shall continue to spread DeathBoy far and wide ;) Already got a few people hooked :)
Thanking you sincerly for filling a musical void,
- Some bloke you've never heard of, who calls himself Azrael
Re: Bloody brilliant
Date: 2004-05-04 09:15 am (UTC)well, I'm back to punching shit out again at reasonable rate, so keep looking and I'll keep writing.
danke ;)