it's funny, that...

[deathboy]

I wish to explain: the reason for all these part-tracks and part-ravings is that I'm trying to sort my alcoholism out.

So I can't seem to write a full track without cracking two bottles of spirits. And I don't need to do that. It'll kill me. I know this.

So I'm writing, and uploading part-tracks.

I've been told that's a good thing. If you don't like it, simple plan: don't listen until the new album's out or I release the full track.

I'm not suffering any kind of block at the moment, god knows life is filthy enough to fill my time, the fact is that I whack half a bottle back and I'm just getting started. I have to stop this so I can be alive to have kids 'n shit, so I'm not finishing tracks the same night as I start 'em. Simple as that.

I like putting what I've made up, even if it's not finished, 'cos it's good to hear something you made is doing the right stuff. So I will.

Right. That's plenty of explaining.

New tracklett:

I don't care - deathboy (test mix 1)

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Boo-hoo-hoo, what you gonna do?
Somebody's got it in for you.

Well who-who-who and what you gonna do?
I don't care, 'cos you brought it all down on you.

Comments

[zemo.livejournal.com]

Good luck with sorting it out.


And this tune is fucking great. Can't wait to hear the finished version.

alcohol addiction

[voofy.livejournal.com]

other than the obvious idea of trying to give up and failing, how would I tell if I was addicted, and not just fond.

Re: alcohol addiction

[deathboy.livejournal.com]

Actually, it's a strange line for me.

From my research and common sense, the two things seem to be:

* Does it (/will it) have a negative impact upon your health?

* Does it have a negative impact upon your lifestyle?


For me, the answer to both is a yes.

The amount I knock back will mean, if I don't get it under control, that my body will give out when I'm a young adult.

I have no wish to die early, no matter how much I like the drink. So I'm looking at fixing shit.

The second bit's up to you, isn't it?

I work from home and CAN take two, three days off work due to being totally unable to function/sleeping the night before off, because the next day I can make the time up and absolutely noone suffers. I have to work a bit solid, but I hit my deadlines, I make my money, I pay my rent, nobody is hurt other than me having to put some extra effort in.

When that was all that happened to me, I didn't consider myself to have a problem.

Now my levels are getting perilously high, I STILL don't fuck my lifestyle up, but risk hurting myself long-term. So I need to address this.

If you're neither whacking ludicrous levels nor hurting your lifestyle more than the odd hangover, then you're doing better than most 20-30 year olds I know.

But they're gonna bury me in a pickle jar.

:/

[roland-1212.livejournal.com]

hehe, Scott, that track is great!