aftermath

[deathboy]

Physically destroyed, but emotionally improved.

'Worst time to catch something that emotionally loaded, when you're steaming from a night's heavy booze-abuse.

Thank you loads to those that talked to me to cheer me up. 's very much appreciated.

I'm now flaking back out again until I stop feeling sick, am actually sick, or pass out, whichever occurs first, while my band and girlfriend curse me and my lineage.

Comments

[ceno.livejournal.com]

Hope you're ok :)

[liz-lowlife.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you, sausage...

[margoeve.livejournal.com]

Please don't destroy yourself, there seems to be an overabundance of self destruction these days as it is.

[(Anonymous)]

hey man... sorry to hear you're going through hell as well. Just want you to know that your music has been in my head since mid 2k2 and my love for it has never been stronger. I swear sometimes that the pain we each go through is our way of connecting to something higher. It's as if you wrote those songs knowing there would be a day, a week, or even a month when I would need that song. Barrier, Low Res-Hero, CheapShot, Alcohol; there's few songs of yours I can think of that hasn't been there exactly when I needed it most. I've been making music kinda the same way you do. Mad synth's and evil vocals. I'm just now really starting to realize what I can actually do with this power, and I mainly have you to thank for it. In the coming weeks I'm gonna start uploading digital demos for people to dig on. I'm especially anxious to hear your opinion on this stuff.
~prq

[(Anonymous)]

I hadn't read to deeply into your previous post on the lj. I can't say I'm surprised by what has happened. Humans are all prone to misinterpret things throughout life. I know I misinterpretted your music for a long time, I used it to fuel the inner fire and reduce myself to ashes. I don't think even Manson or Reznor could connect to the agony I went through like you did. And yes, I admit, I used it to burn me for the longest time. But I'm too much of a stubborn asshole to totally destroy myself. So I pushed through, and now I surge. The flames envelop my body and flow with the air currents instead of melting my innards. Don't take what happened with her too personally. If she wouldn't have used your music, she would have used someone elses.
~prq

[misstemperance.livejournal.com]

*hugs* And thank you, for the lj rants, for the funny links and for making my heart lift every time I hear you music.

[flavius-m.livejournal.com]

don't blame yourself for stuff that is completely out of your control. It is something that can happen if your stuff is out in the public view, people with severe problems can grab your stuff and make it their own in ways you couldn't possibly have thought, even less prevented.

on a different line, it was very very good to see you last night... pity we didn't talk for very long -would like to have a good catch-up with you at some point.

big hugs

[rosetheconfused.livejournal.com]

Aww Scott.... *lost for words* ...ah shit. I dont even know what to tell you... ok I'm going to shut up. Feel better hun.

[(Anonymous)]

I clearly didn't can't help any everyone.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

It's an unfortunate side-effect of being in the public eye. You become "bigger than life" in people's minds.

If you made a connection with them, for a few brief seconds, you have given them something. The rest isn't under your control.

Don't ever regret being a good person.

[nakedblueninja.livejournal.com]

dude, i can't tell you how much i've appreciated your music, your lj rants, and your twisted sense of humor since the day i got told to review music to crash cars to oh so very long ago. your agressive, venomous prose always connected to me and my states of mind like nothing else could. just after i reviewed your cd and got to keep it (yay me!) my dad passed away. i wish i could accurately convey the balm over my consciousness that "lost again" became to me then. VNV Nation let me wrap my head around the fact that his death was imminent, lost again let me wrap my head around the pain that it caused me. for every story you'll hear of someone taking your message frightfully wrong, you'll surely hear ten more of people taking you, your music, and your messages forwhat they are. so i sure hope you don't get completely destroyed by the tragic tales.

[jasontheknight.livejournal.com]

You have a lineage? Cool! Can I touch it?