deathboy | a bit better

Well, that's a relief. Liz got back to me and didn't seem to be mad, just sad that I felt I couldn't stay.

I'd noticed that before I went, her feller and Kerry had disappeared, and assumed something was awry. Seems he noticed I was uncomfortable and nipped out to give me a bit of room - which was considerate - just that by then, I'd already reached the point where I knew I couldn't stick around.

At least folks aren't angry with one-another / me. I sent a little more of an explanation and my apologies. Maybe next time, we'll do things better.

I wish I wasn't so emotional sometimes. It'd be good to be able to just dial it down once in a while (without medication, I mean). I guess I'm not exploding like I used to when I was younger, at least, but it'd be good to be able to ride things like this out without turning into a big agitated ball of hurt.

Balls.