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I'm in an odd mood... 'have been for a few weeks now.
The upshot is, I think I've stupidly saturated people with... "my stuff".
Prolly.
'Hard line to walk... I desperately want my little atonal bastard babies to run amok amongst the general public...
... and at the same time, I don't to piss people off, or get taken for granted... become part of the background.
Which, I feel, has occured.
So, no giant flouncy strop, but I'm going on hiatus.
Hopefully this track I've magically extruded from my pores this evening (despite planning for an early night) will open a few eyes. Maybe not.
Anyways, my latest and, for a while, last offering is this:
Roughneck - DeathBoy (localserver)
Roughneck - DeathBoy (antigoth server)
I'm going to stop shovelling out the things I make, make sure I really am making them for me, and work out if I've been doing things right.
People have asked me if writing a metric shitload of music, banging it out for all to see is the best idea... I always thought it was because it was entirely natural - I write a few tracks a month and see no reason not to upload them... if I finish a track, it means there was something worth finishing about the bugger, so let's bare it's arse to the world.
Lately, I have this horrible feeling of 'meh' from the world.
Which I desperately wanted to avoid.
When you make something you love and you're trying to make sure anyone who might like it gets exposed to it, you can cross lines because of over enthusiasm, and maybe that's been done now.
I'm still going to carry whacking shit out exactly as I have since I was 13, but I think I'll keep the majority of it for my own 'enjoyment'. Hopefully, if I make some kind of streamlining process and release things like your normal musician, those who are interest wiill get the 'good stuff' and not maybe be put off by the regular pedestrian stuff that is part of my process.
This is not, by the way, a cry for commentary and attention, nor will I pretend to ignore anyone who *does* think I'm doing the wrong thing and would like me to just crack on like I used to. It's my choice, it's my stuff, I've had a think and I reckon the less you see of me, the more you'll like.
Same as, quite frankly, my entire life.
The "deathboy massive" can get a CDR off me anytime if they're so interested.
Right. I never meant to write a track tonight and I have some serious code to bash tomorrow. Bedtime, I reckon.
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The upshot is, I think I've stupidly saturated people with... "my stuff".
Prolly.
'Hard line to walk... I desperately want my little atonal bastard babies to run amok amongst the general public...
... and at the same time, I don't to piss people off, or get taken for granted... become part of the background.
Which, I feel, has occured.
So, no giant flouncy strop, but I'm going on hiatus.
Hopefully this track I've magically extruded from my pores this evening (despite planning for an early night) will open a few eyes. Maybe not.
Anyways, my latest and, for a while, last offering is this:
Roughneck - DeathBoy (localserver)
Roughneck - DeathBoy (antigoth server)
I'm going to stop shovelling out the things I make, make sure I really am making them for me, and work out if I've been doing things right.
People have asked me if writing a metric shitload of music, banging it out for all to see is the best idea... I always thought it was because it was entirely natural - I write a few tracks a month and see no reason not to upload them... if I finish a track, it means there was something worth finishing about the bugger, so let's bare it's arse to the world.
Lately, I have this horrible feeling of 'meh' from the world.
Which I desperately wanted to avoid.
When you make something you love and you're trying to make sure anyone who might like it gets exposed to it, you can cross lines because of over enthusiasm, and maybe that's been done now.
I'm still going to carry whacking shit out exactly as I have since I was 13, but I think I'll keep the majority of it for my own 'enjoyment'. Hopefully, if I make some kind of streamlining process and release things like your normal musician, those who are interest wiill get the 'good stuff' and not maybe be put off by the regular pedestrian stuff that is part of my process.
This is not, by the way, a cry for commentary and attention, nor will I pretend to ignore anyone who *does* think I'm doing the wrong thing and would like me to just crack on like I used to. It's my choice, it's my stuff, I've had a think and I reckon the less you see of me, the more you'll like.
Same as, quite frankly, my entire life.
The "deathboy massive" can get a CDR off me anytime if they're so interested.
Right. I never meant to write a track tonight and I have some serious code to bash tomorrow. Bedtime, I reckon.
( Lyrics )
