booze hoover

[deathboy]

Tonight, after a really nice night with Jase, with the better half of my life on the line, after running out of alcohol, I really, honestly considered how the meths in the garage would taste mixed with Dr Pepper.

I am not that person.

I am way better than this.

Jesus wept. You're not meant to have that kind of feeling when you don't live under a fucking bridge, I'm sure.

I'm not sure if I think more of myself for not making an interesting new cocktail, or less for seriously considering it.

Change the NIN to Jesus Jones.

Read a few comics.

I'm way better than this.

Comments

[shiftplusone.livejournal.com]

http://www.marriedtothesea.com/031606/the-horse-is-stressed-out.jpg


Dont be that horse dude.

[echo-echo.livejournal.com]

No no no. Meths is VERY BAD. You will go blnd as well as deaf.

[deathboy.livejournal.com]

's ok, man.

I'm aware of this.

Swear to god, I really wanted it for a minute.

Fucking idiot, me.

Am drinking glasses of cola, pretending there's booze in them and huffing nicotine replacement until I froth at the gills.

I really hate feeling like this.

[glensc.livejournal.com]

Have you considered that it might actually be easier to give up alcohol by giving up( or more reasonably cutting down on ) caffine at the same time.

Alcohol is a central nervous system depresant, caffine a stimulant, the more caffinated you get the more _part_ of you will crave alcohol. Might not work for you but I find swapping the last 2 caffine drinks of the night for non cafine or camomile tea helps not want an alcoholic night cap.

[deathboy.livejournal.com]

good point. I'd been creeping off the caffiene mixers, but they've snook back in. I shall have to try a few alternatives again, maybe go back to the bloody maries :)

[ebonyraine.livejournal.com]

Way to stay strong.

I miss ya, man.

[barbedwirekiss.livejournal.com]

I really, honestly considered how the meths in the garage would taste mixed with Dr Pepper.

I like you dude. I really do.

But if you start to turn into an alkie, I am so going to kick your f*cking ass from here to f*cking eternity. DO YOU HEAR ME? I AIN'T KIDDING!

I haven't got the time for yet another friend to end up as a shivering mumbling pile who doesn't know what day it is or which way is up, and pisses and shits themselves but thinks nothing of it.

I am serious.

[deathboy.livejournal.com]

appreciated, man.

I don't intend to wind up like that. but god it mings.

I could kill for a fucking drink, hoo boy, jesus, shit, I could.

loud music + horrible, HORRIBLE tomato-juice+tabasco + fucking shit-arse ciggy-substitute.

god's dick, but this is unpleasant.

I'm sure I shall be very happy about this momentous moral decision in the morning.

hah. I kill me.

[justinc-1985.livejournal.com]

Just remember, I can give you as much time and support as you need!

I have to bring this quote into play, though!

"The wankers on the street don't drink it, because the wankers on the street can't afford it!"

[5threplicant.livejournal.com]

But if he is out of 'essence of petunia', his boots will stink like hell later on... ;)

[2glamornot2glam.livejournal.com]

sorry to jump in where i may not be welcome (who is this person??? i get that a lot lately as i cruise through lj with the best of intentions)...but
are we talking about a drink or a powder? a drink is one thing...although, even that can be dangerous depending on the person...often wonder if it's dangerous to me (as i take another sip of my wine...drunk from the night and not really needing more but i'm "thirsty") but the other is..well, a whole other issue. fun, but bad news. got my own history with it. don't we all have a history with something? it's about growing up, discovering ourselves, etc. just a matter who is in control and how it all turns out.

[sarah-mum.livejournal.com]

We all have our moments, but the difference between those that slide and those that stop is recognising that you have those moments.

[redcountess]

One is not meant to have that kind of feeling even if one does live under a bridge
- I'm damn proud of/for you! *hug*

Too much,, too soon

[angryangeltoo.livejournal.com]

Success in beating addiction is to do one addiction at a time. Giving up everything at once is overload. Which do you think is the one thats got the biggest grip on your life at the moment? Tackle that one first and please do it with help. Go to AA, ask about rehab clinic if you really need too. The thing with rehab is that they dry you out but then it's down to you to stop the behaviors that make you drink. And it can be harsh, if that means cutting things and people out of your life that encourage you to drink then thats what has to be done.

I wish you could sit with me one day in my job. I deal with people over 50 a lot of them are unemployed due to alcoholism. I do my best by them and get them a drugs counsellor who goes to AA with them or visits them in rehab . What makes me cry is when I find out what these people used to do before their addicition destroyed their life. One of them built the Rosie and Jim Barge, another one worked on The Eden Project. To say they have lost everything due to their addiction is an understatement.

I know you have fought hard to contain your addictions and every time you do myself and all the other fans out there are very proud that you try. Please don't give up and remember how important you are.